I Hate God

Ok, so “hate” is a strong word, especially when the word is juxtaposed to God. But I do hate, sometimes, living in the reality of having the freedom to choose the various things we’ve been given responsibility over. When faced with major decisions, I sometimes wish God would simply lay out the plans, get everyone onboard, and move us forward in harmony.

It’s also why I love God deeply.

He gives us freedom to choose. God gives us space to process, to wrestle, and to use our brains to figure things out. He gives us the freedom to create. God makes way for us to redeem, to honor, and to serve.

God gives us the freedom to love.

I guess at the root of it all, it’s not that I hate God (far from it). It’s more that I have a fear of regretting making the wrong choices that would dishonor the very God who blessed us with amazing possibilities in the first place.

Erwin McManus (pastor of Mosaic in Hollywood, CA) once said, “If you have regret in your life, that’s in the past, but it doesn’t have to be in your future. It’s never too late to build a new story.”

How about you?


Be the Best Version of You!

As a new year begins to unfold, I have been very mindful about intentionally slowing down. It’s so easy to get caught up in trying to compete with a variety of different entities in life. From time to the next best thing, and from busyness to trying to outdo the next person, the race can easily become a lot more fast-paced if we’re not careful. And, before you know it, another year will have passed by and you will look back and realize that you didn’t really make the difference that you intended to when you began the year.

You will realize that you simply settled, that you allowed busyness to take over, and you will pine over the fact that nothing really changed in your life.

I was reminded, this morning, as I spent time in Scripture, that the best thing we can ever do for ourselves is to be the best version of who we are supposed to be. God never intended for us to strive to be better than the next person. God created each one of us with a purpose and the best way we can give Him thanks is to embrace who we are and become the best version of ourselves. It would even be in the best interest for the rest the world that we become the best version of ourselves.

The Apostle Paul, in the book of First Corinthians said, “But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not in vain…”

Paul didn’t consider himself to be better than anyone else. In fact, Paul counted himself to be one of the least in society. But, despite the way he felt about himself, Paul embraced his role in the world and his God-given purpose. Paul, by focusing on his specific gift, felt empowered to excel. Paul became the best version of himself and made a great impact in society.

Now, it’s my turn.

Now, it’s your turn.

Let’s all embrace and love who we are and are becoming.

Let’s make a difference in this world.