I used to love you.
Wanted to be just like you.
You let me into your home.
Your home became my home.
The kind draped on the covers of magazines across the world.
You taught me about your food.
You gave me a chance.
You taught me how to live.
But you eventually left me hanging like rosary necklaces wrapped around generations of innocence left longing for hope.
You majored in sin and you didn’t even know it.
You became a modern day Caesar,
to fight for king and country,
all the while degrading basic human decency.
God in me weeps uncontrollably.
He floods cities to bring people together,
but your entitlement floods division into the cities
already torn apart.
Your screeches slip looser than serpentine belts.
Your religious hypocrisy is just a regurgitated oratorical form of colonialism.
Your name used to sweet talk
even the hardest of felons,
but the way you shackle my freedom
feels like rusted braces
scratching the insides of my mouth.
Your canker soars past sidewalk chalk outlines of dandelion dreams.
Blown in the wind.
The flag that waves above your mantle points to the secret rooms hidden behind your bookcases.
Your barrels still smell of burnt metal.
And you caress them tightly
every time I mourn another
I don’t want to ban your guns.
I just want to ban your ability to take away our sons
And our daughters.
He wanted to write captivating words just like me.
She wanted to paint succulents in teacups because they lasted longer that way.
And his cousin,
She just wanted to play too.
She wanted to taste your food
and learn your slang
just like you once taught me.
She wanted a home.
She wanted to be home.
She wanted her own room
and a place to play dolls
with her make believe friends.
But you locked her away in your basement,
while her parents peered,
through your front porch window.
You’re more Herod than you are Christian,
misquoting Scriptures to justify your separation.
And you have the audacity to claim my God?
who came to preach good news to the poor.
My God who came to heal the brokenhearted,
who came to proclaim liberty to the captives
And recovery of sight to the blind,
My God who came to free the oppressed.
whose name you’ve taken in vain.
Your empty praises
are centuries of Molotov cocktails,
getting drunk on religious idolatry.
Sometimes it feels more like I’m being locked in
than you keeping people out.
And who puts barbed wire
on white picket fences anyway?
It was Dietrich Bonhoeffer who once said,
“The test of the morality of a society is what it does for its children.”
No wonder I don’t recognize this Craftsman anymore.
This Victorian, draping its rusted pipes around the necks of little boys and little girls, has become a mansion haunting tourists for its own pleasure.
This home isn’t what I once knew.
But it’s not like I can just pick up and leave.
It’s not that easy.
So, I’m here.
Standing firm on your front porch.
And, yes, I am not going anywhere.
So, go ahead.
Take your best shot.